Hello, 2020.
I’m so, so glad for the New Year. This last year, of course, was a big transition year for my family and I’m excited to close it out with gratitude and full hearts, and maybe a few exhales, too.
2019 was the year we completed all that we put into motion in early 2018. We moved to our new home and city after selling a large number of our belongings and two temporary housing stays. We trusted we’d land right where we belonged, that True would find his way, that we would find ours.
We did a lot of holding our breath as housing builds lingered, as new school jitters took hold, as parents also moved to our tiny town, as one of them needed emergency surgery (thank goodness he’s ok), as we navigated the newness of all that comes with moving.
I am SO excited to exhale a bit in 2020, but also, I’m ready to invite in the spirit of Ease this next year.
I think natural over-achievers like me (raise your hand if you’re with me!) struggle with the idea of letting things be easy. We think that unless we’ve worked HARD, (often sacrificing/martyring our bodies/time), then what we’re doing/offering/being isn’t worthy. So for me, ease and worthiness are tangled up. My hope this year is to untangle them. I want Ease without self-judgment, and I’m excited to see what unfolds when I let go (even more) of my striving energy.
Less striving, more Ease. Less hustling, more alignment. Less working against the flow and more allowing it to be easy. Less self-sabotage resulting in struggle and more conscious, sacred Ease. Less complicating everything, more simplicity. Less overdoing it, more harmony.
I made myself a little collage painting with my 2020 word. I’ve put it up directly in front of my desk. I’m hoping it can act as a gentle reminder, one that greets me each time I’m tempted to make things more complicated than they need to be 🙂
Here’s to 2020. Something tells me it’s going to be a wonderful year.