Ever since letting Marigold + True go (which has gifted me SO MUCH MORE time to allow a new season of creativity and ideas in), I have felt my spark rise up. I feel empowered, energized, and lit up. I’m falling back in love with my life and my work as an artist, and I’m falling into bed in the evenings with a full heart and gratitude for the satisfaction of a day well lived.
I’m reminded of the sacred importance of paying attention to whether or not our energy is consistently lit up vs consistently drained. And to tune in – often – so we can make micro (and sometimes macro!) adjustments until our lives feel rooted in the ways we want them to.
These last couple of years have been a huge learning curve for me. Huge. I invested in myself in many ways, following the trail of resonance here and there, experimenting with this and that, being a student and beginner at so many things (when I’m much more accustomed and comfortable being a leader/boss!). Some of those investments taught me what I don’t want to do or be, which is such valuable information! And some of those investments have been life changing. I’m grateful for all of it.
As I come into 2022, I have a sense that the last couple of years of transition/investments/experiments/deep learning have served me well, and that now it is time to further alchemize those hard-earned knowings into what I’ve been feeling so much of lately, which is a deep sense of sacred rootedness, clarity, delight, ease, and full-circle moments.
In many ways, I feel like I’m returning home to myself, to the 30-year-old version of myself that was on the cusp of becoming a full time artist, who was lit up with so much possibility, energy, and joy. Those were the days of simple and abundant living, before the burnout, before over-doing and over-scheduling and over-striving. I was just a girl following the path of delights and feeling the gold-bursting and warmest of satisfaction and purpose.
I’m right back there again, but this time with deep down wisdom, and a strong spiritual practice to help lead the way. Perhaps this is the magic of aging. Whatever it is, I’m down for it.
